My Scary News...well maybe

Well, I have told the people I see everyday and my family. I know there is one person that knows about this blog and maybe one more.

At my recent well woman exam, my doc found a lump. I have had a sonogram of it. The radiologist thinks it is a cyst. I haven't heard from my doc so I don't know what we are doing about the lump.

I had some serious moments of doubt. I know I have a lot of people who love me and care for me but I felt so alone. I have had 2 lumps removed from my breasts (yes, they were nothing but I have an aunt that had breast cancer) but this time is so different. I am alone. I don't mean I don't have a great circle of people but I am alone. I have a son which totally freaked me out when they found the lump. The last 2 were found when I had someone that said they loved me and would be there for me BUT I didn't have the responsibility of being someone's mom and possibly leaving them alone in the world without me. I KNOW that is what threw me into my tailspin more than the divorce. I also think it took me a while to tell friends because I no longer have all of the same people in my life that I had the last time I had a lump removed.

I have found out so much in the last year or so. I have been blessed with so many people. I know that if something was found, I would have people to lean on. I will survive, I know I will.