First Night Alone

So Aaron went to a conference for 4 days. His mom came to help with Jacob because my graduate class started this week and I don't get out of class until 5pm and Jacob has to be picked up by 5pm. She came in on Tuesday. She stayed all day Wednesday and today with Jacob. He LOVES spending time with his grandma. BUT she left this evening. I am all alone for the first time with Jacob. I put him to sleep tonight in his own bed even though he was begging to sleep with me because of the "monsters" that have recently taken up residence in his room. Even though I want him in bed with me because I don't want to be in bed alone, I know that he has to sleep in his own bed by himself just like I do. Aaron will be home on Saturday. I don't know if I will be able to make it. I am terrified that I will lose it with Jacob and there will be no one to take him for a second so I can calm down. I am sure it won't happen. I know that I am only one here so I have to keep it together. I thought I would be okay but now I know that I need to have my husband here.

I am going to try to do some work for my online class. I need to get some sleep tonight too.

First One

Who knows how often I will do this. I am not one to write in a journal or a diary. I probably need to write things more often just so that I don't go crazy with all the thoughts that run through my head on a daily basis.

To start, I am almost 32 years old and I am okay with that on most days. I have been married to my junior high school sweetheart for almost 7 years (at the end of the month). We had a little one 3 years ago. He is the most amazing thing I have ever created! I love him so much. I have to admit that sometimes he wears me out (hence the title!) I am a teacher who is going to graduate school at night and online to be a school counselor and probably an LPC.

Okay, I can't think of anything else right now.